52 Weeks. 52 Projects

Why?

I have started so many projects that have come to a halt because before I can finish I am starting something else. I spend endless hours on pinterest dreaming up all the things I am going to make and thinking to my self ‘OMG that looks so easy” pinning away till my hearts content but do i make anything? No. I set myself goals but I’m not reassessing and holding myself accountable. I will become obsessed with an idea and do all this research only to have the idea fizzle out and just like that, it goes nowhere.

I have been writing in a journal and doing a bit of soul searching of late and i have come to the conclusion that I am striving for perfection. I think over time I have lost my confidence. I don’t know that i can blame anything- maybe it’s a personality trait or maybe it’s a result of social media constantly showcasing peoples perfection. I guess at some point in my life I stopped doing things for the pleasure of it and started doing it for the outcome.

I started running for weight loss instead of the freedom and headspace it gave me.

I became critical of my cooking because my Mum or Sister could have made it taste or look better.

I have written and thrown away thousands of short stories and poems for fear that no-one would like them.

“Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.” -Babe Ruth

I have well and  truely put myself on the bench, so over the course of 52 weeks, I am going to complete 52 tasks that fall into 3 different categories.

Fitness, Food and Fine Arts.

The point of these projects, is to challenge myself but not review my self worth. Why make a blog of it and not just do it for myself? Well I need to be held accountable and I will also be putting myself out there, something that is way out of my comfort zone. I will be showcasing my achievements but also my failures and anything else I learn on the way. Maybe I’ll have a hundred followers or more…or perhaps it will just be my Mum. But at the end of the 52 weeks I am hoping to have gained back my confidence and realise being perfectly imperfect is ok and finally, that if I set my mind to something I can plan for it, work hard at it and FINISH it!

 

PS if you are reading this and you aren’t my Mum, I will be announcing my weekly projects in advance so if you want to do it with me you are more than welcome…in fact i would love to see what you have created/achieved- not to compare just to see a different version or interpretation!