Here it is.
Plain and simple.
I am 30 and I’m in a rut. Not in my life as a whole- I have a great job (actually probably better make that past tense…I resigned this week), great husband, beautiful kids, amazing family, good friends, a house and so many other things that I can be, and am, grateful for. I am happy, really happy as a whole with my life.
But I’m in a rut.
Over the years I have gained some bad habits and I need to reset, as corny as it sounds, I think I need to “find myself.” Now as much as I’d love to do a Julia Roberts in her role in “Eat. Pray. Love”, I have responsibilities, and I cant go meandering on a quest around the world to find myself.
But I am still finding a way to step out of my comfort zone.
My husband and I have resigned from our jobs and we are taking our two young girls and two muttlies on an adventure! We don’t know where we will live or what we will do for money but we have faith that we will work it all out as we go along!
“If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.” – Eat. Pray. Love
I bought a journal the other day as I love writing- a hobby of mine that somewhere along the line I stopped. My journal is my therapy, and at a mere $13, my little little diary from Officeworks seems like a pretty good investment. I started to write and the ink poured freely from my pen and it felt good, so good. I was furiously writing a literary masterpiece and my hand couldn’t keep up with my thoughts, next minute I get a cramp…a hand cramp! Man I guess I was out of practice and so I gave my hand a rest and use the time to read back over what I have written and…well it wasn’t a literary masterpiece…for starters it was illegible- when did my handwriting get so messy? Secondly it was a jumble of poorly structured sentences and reflected the scattered way that my mind was currently working.
Fast forward a few months and I have discovered a few home truths about myself. I would bear them out here but I’m not ready for that yet. The big one though…
I’m a “Gonna”
I have a list longer than I’d like to admit, of all the things I am ‘gonna’ do.
Ergo the idea for this blog. It’s for me. To help me grow as a person, to learn to be accountable for all the things that I’m ‘gonna’ do. It’s to learn to put my ideas and plans to action and actually finish them…I’m going to become a ‘doer’
I AM GOING TO BE A FINISHER.
THE FINISHER 